I ask myself, does one ever really fully heal from a loss of a loved one? Do we ever go back to normal? I think we just create a new normal, where they aren't in it. Its not that we don't remember them, mourn for them or feel a loss for them, it's just different. We just keep moving forward, but changed.
I was changed after Shaun died. In many ways, they were good changes in me. I think I feel more deeply, I let more people in, I cry more, I'm more patient with those who are going through tough things, I realized I can do tough things and be ok.I learned how much love I can have, how deeply I loved, and how deeply I'm loved. I learned I can love Shaun, and love someone new. I do have someone new. He does standby and supports me as I heal, and as I hurt he holds me. I've learned so many things. I miss where I was, but I love where I'm headed. In the end the hurt seems worth it, because without all my past, I wouldn't be who I am today and I wouldn't be headed where I'm headed, and I'm at peace with where I am.
I was changed after Shaun died. In many ways, they were good changes in me. I think I feel more deeply, I let more people in, I cry more, I'm more patient with those who are going through tough things, I realized I can do tough things and be ok.I learned how much love I can have, how deeply I loved, and how deeply I'm loved. I learned I can love Shaun, and love someone new. I do have someone new. He does standby and supports me as I heal, and as I hurt he holds me. I've learned so many things. I miss where I was, but I love where I'm headed. In the end the hurt seems worth it, because without all my past, I wouldn't be who I am today and I wouldn't be headed where I'm headed, and I'm at peace with where I am.