I showed up to this view on Memorial Day. At first I was very surprised. I didn't know if anyone was going to visit Shaun's grave but me. I should have known better. Afterwards I went to my parents house that was close by. I said "Mom, when I went to the cemetery Shaun's grave was already decorated." She said, "I know, we wanted to make sure that Shaun's grave looked like he was loved, because he was." Yes he was. I have the greatest family who has been there for me all year long, and my family loved Shaun so much too. He was loved and I celebrate his life all the time. I shouldn't have been so surprised because my family is amazing like that. I know that his brother came to. My sisters, aunts, and all parents made sure he was shown love, and remembered. We remember you dear Shaun. Oh how you are missed.
There are so many people who have been part of my journey through grief. Some silently watch, some pray, some say kind words when they see me, some are right there when I cry, some offer help when they can and some walked away. For those who have been a part of it, I want to thank you. Thank you for the kindness, thank you for the support, thank you for your prayers, thank you for meals, for words of encouragement, for making me laugh, for being patient when I cry, for supporting me, for silently cheering me on, and for loving me through it all. I would have been way worse off without all of your love and support. Thank you doesn't seem like enough, but know that I feel it in every part of my body. You are loved and you are appreciated. I've needed you, and relied on your all more than you will ever know. I'm grateful and blessed.
that I was Shaun's whole book, and he was only a chapter in my book, and that I should keep living and loving. I am working on doing that every day. I'm looking forward to creating the kind of sunshine in my life that he brought to this world.
Don't dim your light, because others can't handle your light. Buy them some sunglasses if they need. Continue bringing love and light into this world. Continue creating happiness, continue being you. You have a special light that no one else has, and the world needs you.
So grateful for motherhood.
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